its not that im lazy, i just take on too much and lose it haha

so um, these were pretty experimental....im not sure what i was doing with them...i just figured id try something...hooray!!!

sometimes I wonder about me

well after some careful deliberation I ve decided to post this tomy blog...... I really need to figure out what's going on in my head. It feels like self consciousness issues but I'm not sure. I look at this one minute and I do feel somewhat proud of what I could do on my first blue pencil, but at the same time I feel helpless watching my classmates pass me by skill-wise. All I can ever think about is becoming a better artist, but I feel as though there is something that's holding me back. I'm not sure maybe in a sense, I'm not trying hard enough which would be strange. Anyways enough babling, I'm off to do some more work on something and not be so stressed hehe.

return from a long Hiatus

Sooo...its been awhile....a loooooong while....but Ive decided to follow the rest and post some of the stuff Ive been doing. Two of the images are my 'unfinished' Digital form final. I say unfinished because the files were two big to render at the end of class, though I did get a b for my efforts. I did some ambient occlusion passes on the files though, which i seem to love for some reason, and here we are. I have to say looking back at them they arent all that bad, but I wish I had the cobblestone street there , so you guys will have to imagine. Also try to imagine the lights on the spaceship because they are there lol. As for the gun, that was alittle project today to keep me modeling some stuff. Right now Im trying to lock down a character to hold it, as I m trying to think about my senior final, but not so much that I get distracted from the 'big picture'. But yea its a pretty cool gun I think though it could be a better render but I just love ambient occlusion so much lol.. So hopefully I'll keep posting regularly and I can stay busy working on projects the summer. Anyways Ciao all!

I'm done with deviantart

Ok. So I originally posted this on deviantart but no one really seemed to like it. I ll admit it could be better. But It just seems unfair that some works get more views than others. I can understand something like a blog being neglected but not on a social website designed to expose one's work. I simply do not have the time to "scratch someone's back" so that they scratch mine. In other words, I cannot spend all morning commenting on all of the work it takes to get exposure to my work. Oh well, I realized today after going back into my box o' artwork that my imagination became stale recently and I;m not sure why. The drawings I did before had substance where as now It feels rushed.....wait...I think I'm rushing life away lol. Soooooooo now that I realize that, I'm going to make a conscience effort to do the best work I can do....which unfortuneately I dont think I've done recently.
anyways Im frustrated by the antics of deviantart and although theer are alot of talented artists there they are being neglected in favor of lesser beings haha...if you are a member you'll understand what I mean and that I'm not bashing anyone's work. Im hurt.....anywho this is my take on a Mario Party, complete with poker...although I didnt think that they drank...it still has to be rated E

OK whenever you travel a long distance, you tend to have a GPS to help you on your journey,(at least my tech savvy generation haha. So upon using the now defunct Magellan guide, it came to my attention that the voice was a woman. Now my imagination wouldn't let a woman be named Magellan, so I came up with a new name for her - Maggie Lan. Now, I was wondering who was Maggie? Why would someone choose to live their lives inside a box to give directions? What would life be like to work for GPS? I decided to create a character for Maggie, when she first started and this is more or less, what I came up with. Alittle different from the original but I figured I could use this character for something in the future so who knows. It may take further itirations before I can be sure this is the ideal Maggie but for now it'll have to do lol.

a newie and an oldie

So I finally got around to finishing this little acrylic painting although Ill probably go back in on the face....but on the bright side it's somewhere I can leave it for right now...to be honest i started it alooong time ago , likke maybe in march or april so it's been along time coming. As for the pencils, those were done sometime ago as well, probably around december of last year! But I liked this one alot and I figured I'd have to post it to my blog, seemed only fitting Id add something more for me and others to see hehe

A boy's childhood wish

so here we are. My first finished illustration of the break.. kinda feels odd...oh well it was fun and now I've got my fingers crossed for my christmas wishlist items lol.